i realized looking through my gallery that it is really random. I love taking pictures. so college is getting a little better. I still don't want to be here. I don't want to do anything. But this is just a stage in my life I've got to get through. I got some good advice last night. "Don't sweat dumb shit". If I let stuff get to be all the time, I won't get anywhere. And if I keep complaining without doing anything about it, I will get nowhere. I want to get somewhere. I want to finish my degree. One more year (hopefully) after this semester. But I might have 3 more semesters after this one. I guess when you get older in doesn't matter if you hurry to finish or not. When I get out of school I don't know what I'm going to do anyway. I might as well just take each day at a time, focus on what I have to do, do my best and succeed. But I'm so out of focus...depression is hard to just get over. There's so many little lies that tear me down. But I believe them. Sometimes I don't know if they're lies or not. I just wish it was easy. And I wish more people cared, but you can't make people care. And you should be nice to them, even if they don't care....which is really hard. i've been a hermit too. and a lot of times i just don't feel like talking. or i don't feel that people want to talk to me. i'm weird. ok that is enough rambling.